A Quiet Return
I didn't think I'd be back so soon. And if I'm being honest, there was a part of me that didn't think I'd be back at all. Oftentimes when we get lost in our lives and things start to get messy, our gut reaction to the chaos is to throw everything away instead of tidying up. It's sort of like how many of us do that thing where we throw all of the clothes that pile up in our rooms back into our laundry baskets (regardless of whether they're clean or not) when we don't feel like putting them away. Sure, it's a lot easier in the short term, but a few weeks later we're left with a raging pile of clean laundry that seems impossible to tackle. And then the cycle continues.
This project has been my primary creative outlet for a couple of years now, and to simply push it aside as if it were a hinderance is probably not the best idea I've ever had. Ever since, I've felt incredibly emotionally congested and it's because I didn't have a place to focus my creative energy. Maybe I'm not the most prolific when it comes to posting content, but it sure as hell keeps me grounded. So, I'm coming back and hopefully I'll figure the rest out along the way. I opted to leave this project because I didn't feel like I was accomplishing anything with it. It felt like little more than a place for me to dump my emotions and hope that someone out there cared enough to read about it. But when I decided to step away, multiple people reached out and told me how much what I was saying meant to them and how refreshing it was to see someone being honest about being lost in the world. And if I can make that sort of impact on even one single human, I am accomplishing something.
Still I am left wondering where I go from here. As always, I'm going to stumble my way through and figure it out along the way. (Because let's be real, do any of us really have it figured out?) But I can promise you this – I will be as honest and as authentic as humanly possible when sharing my journey through the world with you. I'm not going to sugarcoat anything. I'm not going to pretend I'm happy when I'm not. And I'm not going to act like I'm not struggling with depression and anxiety every single day of my life. Instead, let's laugh about the chaos together.
In other news, I've been working on some cool stuff lately and I can't wait to share it with you all in the coming months.
Until next time, my friends.