Summer Left Us Beckoning


“Summer, after all, is a time when wonderful things can happen to quiet people. For those few months, you’re not required to be who everyone thinks you are, and that cut-grass smell in the air and the chance to dive into the deep end of a pool give you a courage you don’t have the rest of the year. You can be grateful and easy, with no eyes on you, and no past. Summer just opens the door and lets you out.” ― Deb Caletti, Honey, Baby, Sweetheart


Summer came, summer went, and it happened so quickly that at times I can't bring myself to believe that it was real. But it was real and it was beautiful. You see, I measure my life in summers; I always have. Sometimes I think it's a retained habit from my childhood because that's when it makes sense to measure your years this way. Growing up, summer was freedom. Summer was when life happened. But now, it feels like nothing more than three consecutive months of sweaty, sweltering workdays. Still, the summer months are tinged with a sort of magic that doesn't exist during the other seasons. My melancholia and my reflectiveness seem to dissolve into the sunbeams and I am lighter. I am happier. I become the carefree girl my winter self wishes she could be.

On the surface, this summer was seemingly ordinary. I worked, I slept, I worked again, and the weeks passed more quickly than I wanted them to until suddenly it was September. But these last few months have changed me in ways that I'd have never anticipated. I found a sort of courage in myself that I’ve never experienced before; I think it was there all along, waiting for me until I was ready. I became less afraid to let people in. I grew less concerned about the judgment of strangers. And maybe this is simply a symptom of summer. Maybe the person I am during the summer will slip away for the next three seasons and I will become my quiet, deliberate self again. Or maybe, just maybe, I am that girl and the summer magic is what gave me the courage to become her. I hope that someday I am brave enough to be that girl all the time because I rather enjoy her.

So here we are with another season behind us. Autumn has arrived, the air is cool and crisp as it can be in late September, and I can say with certainty that these next few months are going to be wild with changes and life changing adventures. But for now, enjoy some miscellaneous summer photos.

Until next time, my friends. 

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